Undefined

No, I am not talking about my gender.

Look at my URL, come on, just look. Read it? randomly-unique, right? As in RANDOM.

Sometimes, I myself can't understand what I feel and what I think. One minute, I'm feeling depressed like I'm Atlas carrying the whole world, except it's the world's problems I carry, then the next minute I'm happy like I'm in Elysium. (Sorry for using Greek mythology to describe stuff)

Seriously, I can't seem to maintain my emotions. This is another reason I don't like having emotions. Oh I dunno.

Lately, I wanna get away from it all. I don't wanna talk to people. I just wanna bond with myself.
I get a different feeling when I talk to people. Before, I hated not talking to anyone or being with anyone, but now, I just want to go away. Like away, away. Where exactly? I thought of staying at a beach. I dunno why, but I feel like this is my happy place. The cool air, the cool sand, the cool water, everything is cool, very relaxing. A perfect place to think and reflect about stuff.

Oh and also, I think another reason I want to get away, is because I feel like everything that's happening to me lately is just a dream. One big dream. I've been experiencing a  lot of dejavus lately, but that's another story.

Going back, I feel like everything is superficial. I wanna know why I feel this way, why I wanna be on my own for a while. I wanna escape the stress of my everyday life. I am the type of person who over-thinks. This is why I feel so stressed most of the time; little things+overthinking=stressed and problematic me.



That's what I just want to do right now... Get away. From everything.

School Supplies

I've actually waited for weeks to buy new school supplies. My main reason was to get my hands on a new journal, because a week ago, my journal's pages were limited and I can't handle writing only limited posts. I resorted to buying one by asking my dad some money. I finally got to buy a new journal :))

Today my mom made me text my tita, to tell her that I need to buy school supplies, and she agreed to buy today. After a few minutes, we were off.

We were on our way to glorietta (me, my tita, my cousin and my brother) we went first to national bookstore to buy school supplies, finally! I got new notebooks and this actually made me happy :)

Then we went to Rustan's to buy my cousin's bag for school, I didn't actually see it but I was told it was a shoulder bag and... I actually lost interest after hearing shoulder bag. Haha.

We were on our way to glorietta when something caught my attention; A bag. WITH SPEAKERS. I was like "What kind of sorcery is this?!" The store clerks (or whatever they're called) told me that they were real speakers and not just designs. They actually demonstrated how the bag works, music played loudly and I was truly amazed. HAHAHA. My tita was like "You like that bag? I can buy it for you" It was a very very very tempting offer, I couldn't resist! So I actually bought it, and it was awesome! And in all fairness, I didn't choose the backpack this time :))

After purchasing stuff, our tita decided to have a drink at starbucks. So my cousin and I ordered our drinks, we said that our name was "NICATE" (But the lady wrote NIKATE, so close enough). When we were about to take our drinks, the guy employee shouted, "mocha cookie crumble frappuccino FOR NICATE" Get it? Get it? I've always wanted to do that :))) my cousin and I had to stop our laughter coz it was so darn funny :)) then we had our time to relax and stuff.

After relaxing and stuff, our tita needed to pee so we went to one of the CR's in Rustan's, and the CR looked awesome!! It was my first time to enter that CR and it was a perfect place for shooting some scenes and taking some pictures! So that's what we did :)

After taking shots and stuff, we decided to head on home :) but on the way, we passed my McDonald's drive thru to grab some dinner :)

And that's how our day went :)

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Grounded

Day 2 of being grounded.
Why was I even grounded in the first place, you ask? Well, it all started last Saturday.

Saturday, the day Beks, Marj, Yans, Sym, Janina, Marj's niece and I drank at vapor. I actually asked permission from my parents, they allowed me to go because they thought I'd just go to SM Sucat, yeah I lied. Bad. Boohoo. For me. So, I told them I'd be home by 9, which I actually planned to do. No intention of going home later than 9, or so I thought.

We drank shots, and smoked shisha. The shots were good, by the way. It took a lot of shots before I got drunk, Marj's niece and Rebecca were the first to get drunk, then so on.. Later on, we had free porn. HAHAHA. That was figurative.. or was it?

Alas I got drunk. Not aware of the time anymore. I actually woke up and it was already 12. Oh damn, I'm dead. We had to stay at starbucks first to rid ourselves (or atleast me) of our drunks state. We left at around 12:30. I arrived home at 1. Got sermoned, they confiscated my gadgets and thus, my grounded state.

After that, I actually went through an emotional state. All the negative feelings overcame me, and I actually lacerated myself. (yeah, I know. How stupid of me. How weak.) The emotions were overflowing plus, I was still slightly drunk that time.

Wait, I actually already explained why I was grounded. The laceration part was an addition.

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Kites away!

Ah Sunday, a perfect day for family bonding, which is what our family did earlier :) though this trip wasn't actually planned by all of us (only my brother and my grandmother planned it) but we all agreed when my brother did his pleading act. After all, this family bonding would actually make up for all the Sundays we've lost just sitting around the house (Oh wait, that's only me).

So after eating of lunch, and doing other household stuff, we were getting ready to go to SM Mall of Asia (or so I thought).

We were riding in the car and I noticed my dad already passed by MOA, and we were gaining distance from it, so I went and ask why we're not heading for MOA, my dad said that instead of MOA, we were going to Luneta park, which is really a great place for flying kites.

As we go down the car, I've noticed that the temperature isn't really conducive for kite flying and that it's starting to get dark, but I can still see a lot of people flying kites so we got our hopes up.

After setting up our place to stay, we got our kites out, but it seems as though our kites were kinda useless, so we bought a new one on the spot.

We started to fly our kite, at first it was hard because the wind keeps on coming then going, but after we got the hang of it, our kite took flight (Not to brag or anything, but I was the one who let it take off) it was actually really tiring because you have to let your arm up all the time, but the pain in the arm feels like nothing compared to the joy I felt while seeing our kite soar.

After everything, we sat down and ate our packed food which is pancit malabon. After eating, we let the food digest by running around and catching this toy bird my brother bought.

The whole bonding time actually made us all feel like kids again. It was a fun Sunday with the family, seeing all of us smile and enjoying each other's company. I hope we get to do these kinds of bonding more often.

And that's how we spent our Sunday :)

Fly kite, fly!

The Hunger Games Trilogy

The trilogy took me by storm. I actually didn't expect that a whirlwind of emotions would engulf me, because the trilogy really is a page turner, it leaves me wanting more. And at the end of every chapter, there's always this hanging detail that would make you think of endless possibilities of what will happen next.

Suzanne Collins did a marvellous job in taking my heart. I can really imagine myself in Katniss' situations. My heart races along with hers and I have to admit, I also get hysterical at some parts of the trilogy. I cry at the death of a character, I cry at the end of the the trilogy. I just feel so moved with the it. This trilogy struck me more than the other series that I've read.

And now I am done reading, I honestly, don't feel the feeling I get after finishing a series. I don't actually feel empty, I don't feel restless. I feel like I'm actually in Panem, the new Panem :)

Eunick Nobe. A district 11 citizen.



"There are much worse games to play."

Half days

Since the start of summer classes until last Friday, our schedule was always only until 12pm. And my parents didn't know that. Too make it seem realistic, our original 5pm dismissal, I had to kill time for the past few days.

First day (April 10, Tuesday), watch titanic with TLC
Second day (April 11, Wednesday), go to robinsons and do stuff with Marnelli, Agel and Mara
Third day (April 12, Thursday),  bonding with some TSP members, I got to go home at about 9
Fourth day (April 13, Friday), SM Sucat with Birthdaygirl/boy Den, Marj and Sym :P

I have got to say, I am impressed that I atleast found ways to kill my time. The last two days actually went a little overboard because I got to go home later than expected.

2 main reasons I did this killing time thing:
1. To not let my parents suspect my dismissal time
2. To pass boredom and heat.

Lemme explain numbah 2. Because. HELL. INFERNO. That's what it feels like at home. No, not because of my family, I love them, but because of le fucking heat. I can't sleep because of the intense heat, I would go home early if the temperature is conducive for sleeping. But I can't because it ain't.

You know the feeling like you're forgetting something? Because that's what I feel. I am forgetting all about my duties. Ugh, it just feels like I am really avoiding this, well, because I really am. I am escaping this. I can't take it. It gets too annoying. Stupid ____ Fuck you ___

Hahaha, I just let my anger flow at the end of this post :P forgive me :)

Hopefully the rest of the summer classes won't be a drag :) I guess it would be unlikely, because I can sense more bondings to come >:) I hope that my sensors are working right >:)

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Epic WRTV day

Technology surrounds the room of ABMC as Agel brings her portable wi-fi into the scene :)

Funny thing though, everyone instantly draws out their phone and goes online :)) trollolol. The magic of portable wifi :)) honestly I was perplexed to find out that there really is a portable wifi and I was like, "What kind of sorcery is this?!" I opened my laptop and used the wifi, in all fairness, it's fast :) even on my phone I am online :P I had to blog about this because it seemed awesome.

It seemed awesome to see my classmates rummaging through their phones just to go online and another thing, almost everyone of us have food in our mouths. LOL Sarap ng buhay :))

If my laptop is the pambansang laptop of ABMC, Agel's portable wifi is the pambansang wifi of ABMC

So awesome xD

Technology, I appreciate you >:)

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