Choice

I'm never good in making choices. I just realized that just now.

I always ask for other people's opinions to make my choice. Because as I mentioned in my previous blogpost, I don't trust myself in controlling my life.

One decision that I can't forget was when I decided to not act in our recently staged adaptation of Mamma Mia. I asked opinions from others and most of them told me to act. And I took their advice and acted. It was the best decision made by others for me. If I pushed through with what I decided and that was not to act, I may be regretting it until now. The decision made by others for me saved me from a lot.

Most of my decisions lead me to wrong paths.

I hate how I can't get a hold of my life. I hate how most of my decisions fail me. I hate how other's opinions are better than my own when it comes to controlling my life.

Why is it hard to make a decision anyway? Maybe for me, it's because I weigh things wrong. I usually value others more than myself, maybe this is why most of my decisions fail me, because it will benefit others more than it will benefit me.

I should learn to weigh my decisions correctly. I should learn to trust myself.

Make the right choice.