Weak

I am weak.

I may look strong because of my big body and boyish movements but underneath all that is one fragile little being that is damaged ever since.

I cry at the simplest things.

I am so weak that I think the solution to my problems is ending my life.

I am so weak that I have attempted to end my life several times but i fail coz I am afraid.

I am so weak that i can't even stand up for myself.

I'm actually crying right now. And I am broadcasting this because i think this is the only way i could get it out of me. Because if I don't let it out, the weakling in me might just break again and again. This is why i'm so noisy online.

I can't handle my problems

I can't stand alone

I'm worthless, I'm an accident, I'm don't deserve to live, i'm TOO EMOTIONAL. 

I'm useless.

I am