Friday, June 14, 2013

Hello Cold World

Cold weather does affect people differently.
What is it in this weather that makes people blue, lazy, extra romantic, or even sleepy?


The cold weather makes people blue
Maybe because the cool weather makes hearts cold and makes cold hearts colder. People get depressed, quiet, and go deep into thought because the weather keeps them immobile. 

Which is also why people tend to be lazy on cold days. They would want to relax and feel the coolness on their skin. But then after a while, too much coldness makes them seek warmth.

This may explain why most people would tend to be more romantic so they could cuddle with their cuddle-buddy.
As for people like me, we become more romantic with the blanket that warms our   tummies.

And thus being wrapped in either a lover's arm or a warm blanket, the cold weather gives a sleepy ambiance. 

It serenades every cold heart, lazy body, and cuddler.


The cold weather does affect people differently. But it does seem connected, right?


Saturday, June 8, 2013

Weak

I am weak.

I may look strong because of my big body and boyish movements but underneath all that is one fragile little being that is damaged ever since.

I cry at the simplest things.
I am so weak that I think the solution to my problems is ending my life.
I am so weak that I have attempted to end my life several times but i fail coz I am afraid.
I am so weak that i can't even stand up for myself.

I'm actually crying right now. And I am broadcasting this because i think this is the only way i could get it out of me. Because if I don't let it out, the weakling in me might just break again and again. This is why i'm so noisy online.


I can't handle my problems
I can't stand alone
I'm worthless, I'm an accident, I'm don't deserve to live, i'm TOO EMOTIONAL. 

I'm useless.

I am