First Kiss

My first kiss went a little like this..

*mwa*

When It Rains

Rain does have an effect on me.
I just don't know if it's negative or the opposite.
I feel sad, but calm.
It's like a calming sadness that I don't understand.

As the raindrops fall harder, the noise grows louder
I feel chaotic.
This makes the negative emotions intensify, turning into anger.

Lighting strikes
Thunder claps
I feel hysterical.
I feel like laughing at the very face of lightning
Trying to feel the burn of electricity through my body.

Lights go out.
I feel afraid. Fearful.
I am afraid of the dark.
The sound of thunder and rain make me imagine dark and evil things around me

Lights go back on.
I feel relieved.
Now the intense and chaotic feelings are gone.
I feel like I'm floating.

The rain drops are now slow and calm.
I feel calm as well.
I feel the cool breeze upon my skin, it feels so relaxing.
It all feels good.

But the rain does indeed make me feel sad, that's normal
But this sadness feels happy, that's not normal.
These conflicting emotions is just like the rain while the sun is out, burning even.
It's not normal, but it happens.

It's funny just thinking how I connect with the rain. How I ride along with it.
These emotions all happen all so quickly. This only happens when it rains.