It has actually been a tradition to mourn during the week, to actually keep a low profile, to fast and to be abstinent, to reflect and to pray. That is for Catholics and the believers of God.
I may be a Catholic, I say I believe in God even if I have doubts, but I don't actually practice what I preach. I label myself as a Christian but I don't follow the tradition, not lately to be exact.
Because lately, I have somewhat become agnostic. Alright, that label is too much, let's just label me as a doubter.
Why a doubter? Because I doubt my religion, but I am not against it, do not misunderstand me. I just doubt its beliefs and traditions. I'm not the kind of person who does things because everyone is. I don't simply do the act without understanding it, just like others. I kind of deviate from all these traditions because I don't see the point in doing them. Don't tell me that this is triggered because of my laziness, because it is not. Laziness is just a factor.
You may say that I am drawing away from the presence of God, but I am not. I am a proud Catholic. I just have questions in mind. God gave us minds to think right? One should not neglect one's freedom of thought.
I love God. I just can't stand people getting mad at other people for not believing in what they are believing.
Did that last sentence make a point?
So don't tell me that I am becoming a bad person because of my doubts.
Happy Holy Week :)
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