Yes, it's a paramore song.
No this blog post ain't about paramore. It's my blog, so obviously, it's a blog post about me.
So, how have I been?
I'm still alive but I'm barely breathing. Why? I'm dragging myself into something I don't want to do. The thing is, I took this, I should accept it. Since this is what I chose. Not expecting that it would be this hard.
Aint it fun, living in the real world?
I'm living in the real world, and it ain't fun.
Oh, the Nobe who is well known for being so lazy and stubborn actually found a job!
Remember that previous blogpost about why it's so hard for me to find a job? Apparently, I got to find a job. Which is unrelated to my course. (Well, my course has such a wide range of possibilities, but, you get my drift.)
So the job I got has some of the things I hate the most.
– office-like environment (trapped like an animal)
– phone calls every where (I have an irrational fear of phone calls, that was sorta resolved by a friend of mine)
– people bossing me around (i just hate it)
– being in one place for a whole freaking day (i must be free!!!!)
And so much more.
Don't get me wrong, the people there are nice. Well, most. And they are the ones who make the stay bearable. Also, money. Money makes it sooo bearable. (Also my girlfriend motivates me so much and it makes me wanna do better in that place)
But it's the job itself that I hate. (Hate is such a strong word.) I meant dislike.
Now, why don't I leave?
I'm still looking for a replacement. My friend in the work place told me that I shouldn't leave unless I already have a sure replacement. But while I don't have one, better force myself to go to work everyday. (Not to mention waking up so fucking early)
I try so hard to do my job there, it's just so fucking hard.
I need a media related job. ASAP.
I guess that's it for the update.
Other than work, I'm pretty much still the same ignorant, lazy, stubborn, funny (not), corny, bubbly, energetic, weird and random Nobe everyone came to know.
I miss being a student tho.
Oh well, this is life, I can't stay in my comfort zone forever, or else I won't survive the real world.
And yes, the real world IS scary.
But I won't go cryin' to my momma.
-N
